29.10.17

Jesse's Birth Story

Samuel, Jesse's middle name, was the name of a prophet in the Old Testament.  In his time, God's people were battling against the Philistines.  After a dramatic victory over their enemies, Samuel took a stone set it in that place and gave it the name Ebenezer, which means, "Thus far the Lord has helped us".

I don't really know where else to start, because, as I have learned in the hard ways over the past few weeks, there was really now way to prepare, no way to pray except for grace and mercy, for an event like birth.  And when I look back, really all I can say is what Samuel said.  Thus far the Lord has helped us.  And, wow.  And, that was fast.  I've been coming back to this post often wondering how to share and how much to share.  I'm just going to share the highlights, but by default Jesse's story will be much shorter to write than Ellis's was, anyway!

I had spent so many days thinking I was going into labor that I wan't fully convinced that it was happening when I actually did.  By Saturday afternoon, I was having contractions that were short, very manageable, and all over the place.  Finally I called my doula, Rachel, to come over, because we suspected that when I did go into active labor it would all progress very quickly.  Finally I remembered that warm birth tub waiting for me and we decided to leave for the hospital, which was a 25-30 minute drive away.  In hindsight, I'm glad I didn't know how close the baby was to coming because the crazy started here.  My water broke in the car (note to all father-drivers: bring towels, Febreeze, and know where the nearest car detailer is).  I sprinted up two flights of hospital stairs.  Cue the music, dim the lights, and the water, none of which I got to enjoy for very long because as soon as I got into the birth tub the baby was clearly on his way, and Jesse was born a few pushes and a few minutes later.  He was born an hour after we left the house, 30 minutes after we pulled up to the hospital.  I had been praying that God would direct our steps and he did, with some very strategic timing!

Jesse's first picture


Before he left, my doctor said, "Erin, that was what birth should look like."  Jesse and I will take that as a compliment!

Nurses (one for the baby and one for me), Doctor, Mom, baby, Dad

Although a lot went differently this time around, so many things were graciously the same.  Both Ellis and Jesse were born in the water, in rooms right across from each other.  My wonderful doctor and wonderful doula, Dr. Narinder and Rachel (below), were both there to help us welcome both Ellis and Jesse into the world.  Whatever "plans" we had, however loosely held, were fully realized. 


I love birth.  Even the difficult bits - for these are also full of miracles.  Yes, there are a lot of variables to worry about. And, let's be honest, worry about them I did.  But God gently led me by the hand through the worry, left me with peace, and carried me from beginning to end.  Creation and new life are the signature works of God, and He built me to partner with Him in bringing forth life with my very own body.  How astonished and privileged I feel.  We got to witness this piece of his creative power and the world, my life, and my heart will never be the same.  There's nothing that will teach you the meaning of surrender more and no day more full of grace than this.   And all for an amazing gift - Jesse.  💓💓

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